I Leave my Fear Alone

“The dark does not destroy the light; it defines it. It's our fear of the dark that casts our joy into the shadows." -Brene Brown

It's been my experience in life so far, that there are many things to fear.

Many unknowns. 
Doubts.
Questions.
Worries.
Second-guessing.
Drifting.
Wandering.

All those,
In my relationships.
In my self-confidence.
In my parenting.
In my photography. 

I'm continually made aware,
I'm not perfect.
I make mistakes.
I'm tired. 
The path in front of me is dark.
And this world is broken.

I've been on a personal journey this year of #embracingself. This journey has brought me through winding roads and forks I've wandered up and down and through and back around again. I'm not even sure yet that I'll ever know when, if, or if ever, this #embracingself journey will end or if I'll even recognize it when it does. But what I do know. Is that nothing in this world is or ever has yet given me what I need to not feel all the fears. 

What I've been coming to realize is that there are,
Highs and lows.
Brights and darks.
Joys and sadness.

And there are fears. 

But in my life,
"The dark does not destroy the light; it defines it."

I'm never going to fully find what I'm searching for here. And I'm always going to feel overwhelmed by the darkness I feel in life sometimes. How complicated. How. Hard. 

But in all that. I am certain of one thing.

The dark defines the Light.
I'm gonna leave my fear alone.
I'm not gonna fight it.

I'm gonna sink my feet,
into the Light.
into the Stone.
into Security.

And ask Him everyday to
stay close to me.

The world can swirl around me.
But if my feet are cemented in the Stone,

I can have the security in life no #embracingself campaign will ever have the possibility of bringing me. I can learn healthy habits with #embracingself, but it will never have the full effect that a solid grounding in my Lord, Jesus Christ will. The full effect that His view of me; that His value of me; that the worth He places in me... that's the end of it. 

And I will continue to wander. And worry. And fret. 
But my prayer is this...
God, "Keep me by You"

This is what I'm learning today.
I leave my fear alone.